Don't go...

I never thought that that I would possibly leave this country someday for a few years could change anything in this world. I just thought of myself, how I would feel and imagined a magnificent future when my dreams came true.

But never did I expected that I could ever feel this way when you said you might go away. It just hurt me more than I'd thought.

Am I too selfish?

Electricity - feel the vibe in your heart

**I haven't listened to the song for a while, but as always, it just gives me goose-bumps and can move me to tears very easily. The lyrics, the melody, the dance, they're just perfectly incorporated. Only one word to say: Brilliant!

It feels so weird

Holidays and I've got a headache again, literally (@_@) Feeling like exploding.

I've been thinking too much these days but it all goes nowhere. I'm struggling so hard to shove this kind of feeling away. It's actually not bad - the feeling, I mean - but makes me feel uneasy at the same time. I hate it when my emotions begin to get out of MY control. Geezz...

[Artwork from "Basara" by Tamura Yumi - my most favorite manga ever]

I need some rest

Tired to death. Can't even think properly anymore.

Notes

June 20 - 2 months to go
Sept 16 - 3 months to go
Nov 20 - 2 months to go

Things to prepare (quantity/estimation for each):
- SoP: 4
- Misc essays: 4
- Ref letters: 12
- Transcripts: 4
- Prof.: 8
- Emails: countless
- TOEFL: 1
- GRE: 1
- Money: lots
- Time: very little
- Ability: depends
- Probability: med-low
- Expectation: super high

--> FAQ:
Tired?  
- Yes, of course.
Quit?
- No.