Monday, June 27, 2011
I've been reading lots of Chinese romance novels recently. It's sorta like comforting myself.
The worst thing is that I've always had to try my best to calm myself down each time my grandma and other relatives of mine whisper about my employment status behind my back recently. Sometimes they even make me feel that I am being insulted. I swear at the so-called face to which they hold on to live. I swear at their ignorance, at their selfishness, at their greediness. And has anyone told them that they've been being unconsciously heartless to me?
Too much work is wearing me out. Ironically, those who have been helping me a lot are neither my parents nor any blood-related persons but my Sousuke, my lovely staffs and my friends. Strangely enough, it seems I wasn't born to live with my current family in harmony. No matter how hard I try, they seem to have forgotten how to listen and get what I really want for my life. Yah yah, I know that this is not new anymore, that it can't be any more boring, bla bla... But can you tell me how I can fix things up? I'm already in complete frustration now.
*sighs* Hope miracles will happen soon. And, well, I miss you, my Sousuke. Wish you could hold me right now. I really need a big warm hug.
Saturday, June 25, 2011
I've been a very looooooong time since I last wrote anything in here. Thank God that it's not completely forgotten. Someone (well, my lovely Butterball, actually :P) reminded me of my writings a few days ago and I think she meant this place of mine. I've got 3 official blogs in total, two in English and one in Vietnamese. 2 for rambling and 1 for my short (and absurd) "short stories". And I think it's time I brought this one back.
Actually before writing this entry, I've deleted a couple old ones which I suppose shouldn't be kept. They were things I'd better forget, and I don't want anybody else to know them, either. You won't blame me, will you? *kidding* ^^
Sometimes I feel it kinda more comfortable expressing my thoughts in English than doing it in Vietnamese, and that's why I still have the habit of writing all my personal documents in English at work. By the way, for your update, I've been doing quite good with my life these days and my current job as a teacher is going pretty well. It provides me with a lot of time for leisure activities, but still helps me earn enough money to have some savings. Of course there are still obstacles, but challenges always make things more interesting, don't they? ^^ To a certain extent, I think I'm sorta pleased with my life now and what I need now is just a little bit more time and strength to make my dreams come true :)
Anyway, I'm back. And welcome back to my little room, my dear friends! *hearts*